I have been battling my way out of some depression and anxiety for quite awhile now and since being diagnosed with ADHD that has really helped me shift some things that were really feeding that negative cycle. However I have begun to notice that usually two weeks into my monthly cycle it seems like all that is good and right with the world is flushed down the toilet and I become a completely different person. It is usually a very dramatic shift and can hit me out of the blue sending me either into a very high anxious state or extreme depression and my mind creates vivid and negative stories about the people closest to me as well as myself. I have what feels like zero control over my emotions in this and at times have extreme urges to self harm(it sounds crazy but the act of vigorously scraping something against my skin calms my brain down or something (but at the same time the tiny bit of logic in my brain is very freaked out) or struggle greatly with suicidal thoughts. This is usually followed up by several days of extreme fatigue, I will struggle through the work day but just want to sleep when I get home – which frustrates me more because I am not able to do the things that I I want to do or show up the way I want in life. It strains my personal relationships a lot as well.
I started trying some medication for ADHD several months ago but my follow up appointment was differed twice and so I was only able to take the medication consistently everyday for a month or a little over. During that time I didn’t experience this major drop but have the last two months again when only taking it occasionally. I don’t know if this is a fluke or not…My appointment is next week so I will be discussing it with the Dr then but am curious if there is any insight I can glean here?? Or other things that I should be watching for or asking the Dr when I see him?
Thanks in advance
