On Thursday I was eating old fashioned, organic oatmeal with flax, fruit and almonds. I swallowed something small and sharp. It stuck in the upper part of my throat. I could breathe. I tried unsuccessfully to get it out with water or coughing. I called my doctor, but while waiting decided to leave a message and then prepare to go to the ER. I decided to try one more time leaning over further and coughing. The object came up. Yellow to brown, hard and transparent, it looked like a large hull from popped popcorn. I feel I had no lasting harm. The oatmeal company rep said it sounded like the hull from steel cut oats.
I feel my executive side handled this problem well. I have had other incidents where the danger was clear and present when my brain just took over and I survived. Is this an example of executive control?
On the other hand, if the danger is less so, I delay the response that would take care of me, especially if the people involved are relatives or people who are supposed to be kind (or not) to other people. I have done the hypnosis where I cut up pictures of issues from the past. I have also done the games that teach me to recognize emotions and expressions. I am listening to the music. I am trying recipes.
It is time for me to use my ability to recognize unhealthy, even if less clear, situations sooner and to act. Can you give me more direction in this situation? A take on an old church saying: I need to know when I am in a chicken coup, but that I am not necessarily surrounded by chickens. Somehow the lecture on new learning is coming up.
[I am taking steps to gain weight ( I do not need to lose weight). I have changed my primary care doctor and have an endoscopy scheduled and possibly a colonoscopy. I have learned to be specific about my physical problem.]
