I am 30 yr old male. I have gone too far and have become too negative in my outlook. I feel like trapped in my job. I have stopped learning for all these years. May be I was never supposed to be in IT. But I don’t know where I belong. I somehow managed to get my degree. I never had a girlfriend. I have Masturbation addiction as well for close to 13 years. Many of my friends are doing better in life. I am not a skilled employee. I don’t deserve to be called an engineer, when I know in reality how I barely passed because of relative marking in my post graduation degree. It seems like a joke to have this PG degree. I don’t feel comfortable with all these dilemma and false sense of pride. I am one of the 90% of the employee who just survived due to other employees who really put in the work. I sometimes feel like, may be I have not grown up yet.